Still Here, Still Healing: A Dispatch from the Pause

There’s a particular kind of exhaustion that comes from doing the hard things with no backup plan. From carrying everything on your own back while trying to build something that might carry you instead. And if you’ve been following along, you probably noticed—I haven’t blogged since July 3rd. Not because I didn’t care. Not because I ran out of things to say. But because it’s been one hell of a few weeks . It all came to a head when the pain finally demanded center stage— unignorable, consuming, constant . I had to dial everything back, even the things that mattered, just to stay afloat. And at the same time, I had to face the brutal truth: I still have to keep going , pain or not. Do you know how hard that is for someone already fighting depression and anxiety on a daily basis? It’s like trying to climb out of a pit with sandbags tied to your arms—only now the pit is also on fire. And then the roof started leaking . Literally. The final offense in a long, moldy, crum...